Monday, September 29, 2008

Apples and Honey



Tonight is erev rosh hashanah - the evening(erev) of the head (rosh) of the year (shanah). Going into tonight, I must admit that I was confused about the point of rosh hashanah. There aren't pages of description in the Torah/Old Testament, just little paragraphs. Why does God care about the new year? Why does he want it ushered in with silver trumpets and the sound of the shofar? Why is the economy falling apart on the new year and can house republicans really be that stupid?

very quickly because it is past my bed time, i quickly found out why I was to celebrate rosh hashanah this year, at least for tonight (since I forgot to ask for tomorrow off and I have an important meeting). At the service, by myself with D out sick, I opened up my siddur to the very beginning to read the preface. If you have never read the preface and introduction to the Bible or prayer book, it is a must. Sometimes, such as in this book, they contain deep thoughts and explanations for why this book is the way it is for the honoring of rosh hashanah and yom kippur. Other prefaces, specifically for Bibles, are rich histories of how that particular translation came to be or the history of the printed Bible. Interesting stuff. This siddur, this prayerbook, unlocked the mystery of why I felt so keenly to skip Gossip Girl and cuddling with my husband and walk down to Rosh Hashanah services.

the preface explained that rosh hashanah is about celebrating God as King, and shaping ourselfs to be members of his kingdom. Hallelujah! how perfect is that! It noted that we are his administrators in his kingdom, there to do his will (thy kingdom come, not my kingdom come). and that it is our job to take care of his kingdom. how timely. Now there are a few remaining thoughts I remember because it is truly past my bed time...but the author of the preface noted that rosh hashanah and yom kippur speak to three things: God as King, remembrance, and redemption. The book also mentioned, and I love this thought, that the rabbis said the pivotal verse for Jews everywhere, and truly, followers of the Eternal God everywhere, Deuteronomy or Devarim 6:4 "Hear o Israel, the Lord our God, the Lord is one" (the Shema) is us saying we accept the yoke of God's Kingdom. When we say the Shema, we say here I am, King of the Universe, here to do your will.

shanah tova.

Sunday, September 28, 2008

Thy Kingdom Come

"your kingdom come, your will be done on earth as it is in heaven."

What do these words mean? Over the last 8 years or so of my existence, they have come to mean everything in my walk with God. They are the reason I am launching this study, even though the situation is not exactly perfect. I have not mastered Tanahkic Hebrew, nor do own Baumgarten's four volume lexicon, nor an apple computer with the $400 dollar lexicon/translater that would allow me to dissect each word to the verb root as I desired when I thought of doing such a study years ago. And the aesthetics of my surroundings are not quite up-to-snuff. I still do not have that blue cozy chair I have coveted with the ottoman, and my window scene isn't amazing. But it ain't bad anyway, the sun is finally peeking through the dark rain clouds, the street glistens from the just fallen rain and the leaves are just beginning to turn colors. In addition, there is a Greek festival up the street with a cup of avoglomeno soup with my name all over it, and perhaps a necklace or two... yah!

So, kingdom. here or in heaven? what is God's desire? what did Yeshua mean by this verse, this prayer? Why should we pray the same way? I feel this verse makes us or breaks us as Children of God. We may not know it for a long time but I think it helps unlock how we are supposed to walk our walk with him. Where we view the kingdom of God shapes our walk - it impacts our actions and how we live our lives. It separates the wheat from the chaff. And what exactly it is is the focus of my study. What did Yeshua mean by the kingdom of God?

First, lets unpack the actual verse itself, since this will be the starting point of my study.
David Stern notes in the Jewish New Testament Commentary (which is the only reference book I have at the moment...I'll work on that) that the opening lines of Yeshua's prayer is similar in style to the opening phrase of the mourners Kaddish, the prayer that comes near the end of the Shabbat services on Friday evenings. The opening of the Kaddish reads "Let God's name be made great (hallowed) and holy in the world that was created as God willed (thy will be done). May God complete the holy realm in your own lifetime, in your days and in the days of all the house of Israel, quickly and soon."

I have always loved the Kaddish. How perfect is it that just at the point where we as an individual are mourning our loss, we collectively with our religious community, rise up and praise God. It is not about us, it is about him and his Holy name. For those suffering wrenching grief at the loss of a dear one prematurely, I understand if this does not comfort you. It just puts me in a sense of awe though, that God is sovereign. It reminds me of the time I went to Auschwitz the death camp almost a six years ago at this time but during the days of Awe, and I was crying and upset, asking God those questions everybody asks in times of tragedy, even if they do not believe in the Creator of the Universe - where were you when this occurred. Why didn't you stop it? I remember so clearly what i heard back (we can talk offline if you have an issue with me hearing things from God - feel free to ask) "I was here."

I'm not going to say I get this answer, or think its fair. I wonder too about a God that would be there among such awfulness with the crematoriums burning deep into the night and the suffering...but God is. on earth as it is heaven. Not that heaven is a bunch of brutish fascists burning people, but we as his followers did not do enough to stop it. there is line where something on earth becomes our responsibility as agents with free will. the holocaust - we did not stop it. global poverty - we have not stopped it. the genocide in darfur, the brutish acts of the burmese regime, the murders in Iran...all things we have not stopped. What is a God who gave us free will to do? what is permitted on earth is permitted in heaven; on earth as it is in heaven.

I have this passage from a book i want to share but the husband is not feeling well and sleeping in the room where the book is so I'll post it later. Plus I do not want to dwell too much on the Holocaust. The point I want to end with is that how we view the kingdom of God affects how we live our life and our walk before him. If we think its some magic place up in the clouds with streets of gold, where we get to eat whatever we want and feel no pain, and that its God's job to fix it all. In fact, the worse this place gets, the faster his kingdom of gold and chocolate mousse will come to us - then we are not going lift a finger to make this world better. If the kingdom of God is here on earth, or can be manifested here on earth and we can exercise our free will to make this place better, then we'll live the life of servants. Of course, to pull a C.S. Lewis, it could be neither of these or something in between. it is my hope that by the time this study ends, we'll all have a better idea of what we should be walking towards.

Friday, September 26, 2008

the magic kingdom

Why al memlekah? Its Arabic for "the Kingdom" which is the focal point of this blog. Why Arabic over hebrew? well, what first came to mind when I thought about blogging my study of the Kingdom of God was "mustard seed" but that name was already taken by somebody blogging about sustainability or poetry, something like that. The next name that came to mind was al memlekah, which I will forever associate with Paul Oakenfield's "dead can dance" song because of the movie "the Kingdom" about an FBI team's time in Saudi Arabia.

That movie was so fascinating to me since I had been to Saudi Arabia, a place we call in my line of work "the magic kingdom" as things are not always as one would think in the Kingdom. I thought the trailer for the movie was pretty bitchin and since I was in arabic class at the time, al Memlekah immediately popped into my head whenever i saw the trailer.
For some reason, hamamlakah - the hebrew version of the kingdom is not as strong as al memlekah. or at least for me the connotations are not as strong. the arabic, with its thoughts of the Saudi desert passing underneath my airplane, or the camels wandering on the white sand, or that time i at dominos pizza surrounded by bikini clad saudi women at the beach club seem a great intro to my study of the kingdom of God, which I feel in many ways is not going to match all my preconceived notions of what the Kingdom of God is and when will it come, or at least the notion may continue to do the mind warp that the kingdom of Saudi Arabia continues to do to me. At the very least using the arabic and talking about Saudi Arabia means I can post some of my pics, with the caveat that one is not allowed to take pixs in al memlekah so don't turn me in to any religious police you may know!

Another note on language and word usage, I am going to use Jesus' Hebrew name, Yeshua, because I like it better.









Monday, September 22, 2008

Be extraordinary

At some point in our lives, we face a choice to live life in a drab, monotone manner, stuck in the routine of workweekendwork or to sieze a far off idea while in some punchdrunk state of little sleep, with that no-water soy chai from 6:30 am ritzy starbucks still running through your bloodstream at 10:21 pm. And the thought occurs, that its time to make life happen in this city i hate on some days, most days because it does not inspire me and drains me as i toll for my paycheck and benefits. I think, i don't have to be a routine. I don't have to settle for starbucks. I am not limited to Times New Roman in size 14 font. I don't have to let my thoughts bounce around only in my head. I can learn how to wiki! I can create something! I can be extraordinary. I can be God's.

This blog will be me trying to capture the inspirational and a reflection of my journey to unpack the kingdom of God.